E.L.F. haul & review

After 5 long months, I'm back! This time I'm going to show you my make-up collection. I won't blog about my emotions anymore. I think I should blog about make-up. My favorite make-up brand this week is E.L.F.! To be honest, I used to hate this brand for no reason! Weird, huh? Most E.L.F. products cost $1 each, but here in Philippines it's P129.75 each. It sucks 'cause the price is almost thrice as much. But the price did not stop me from buying E.L.F. Ha Ha! This is my E.L.F. haul as of today. My first E.L.F. was the Butternut Brightening Eyeshadow Quad. Even though I have a sensitive skin, this did not irritate my skin at all. I love their products except for the Mechanical Eyelash Curler, it's so-so. Compared to Shu Eumura, this is less "safe" because it can pull your lashes if you're not careful enough. But it does curl your lashes. The All Over Color Stick in Lilac Pearl has a very light color so I don't recommend it if you'll use it for lips or blush. It's good as an eyeshadow base. I thought the color is like light purple but it's almost transparent with shimmer. Since I don't like heavy colors, this shade fits me. My next target is Pink Lemonade! Yay! The All over Cover Stick is very nice. It is creamy and it covers my undereye dark circles. The eyeshadow brush is soft and dense. I haven't tried Silver Lining yet but the color looks really nice. I use Butternut for my everyday neutral look and I like it. The 2 lightest shades will show if you apply an eyeshadow base first. The other 2 colors are very pigmented.

I think E.L.F. products are really good. I read many positive reviews about their lip products too so I might try them soon! I hope you guys like my review.


ano ba yan umiiyak nanaman ako. sino pa ba ang mas malungkot sa akin? durog na naman. ayoko na mag mahal ng kaibigan. lagi na lang ako mangungulila.

buti pa ang material things, hindi ako sinasaktan ng ganito.

asa ako!

bukas na last day. bukas na paskuhan. hindi ba dapat masaya na ako? pero hindi. nalulungkot ako.. akala ko kasi nakita ko na yung kaibigan na matagal ko ng hinahanap. ngayon, mawawala nanaman sakin. gusto ko na talagang umiyak...ang sama sama na naman ng loob ko. yung gusto ko mag greet sa birthday ko, wala. ano ba naman 'tong buhay na 'to. ako ba talaga ang may mali? bakit lagi na lang hindi ako sinasama? grabe, akala ko natakasan ko na, pero bumabalik pa rin sa akin. ano na ba ang dapat kong gawin? talaga bang destined ako maging loner??? punyetang.......! lagi ko na lang ito nararamdaman. ayoko na talaga. utang na loob!!! gusto ko ng lumayas sa mundo. may pera, may computer, may pagkain, may pamilya, pero walang kaibigan. oo, napakalaking ipekto talaga, nakakasira ng ulo. may makakatulong pa ba sa akin? may pag-asa pa ba ako?

$ not equal to :)

i realized that money ALONE can't bring you happiness. what if you're so rich, you could buy all things, but have no one to talk to? Would you be happy? Would you be contented? Would you feel good eating those expensive dishes all on your own? Who would you talk to when you feel like the world is crushing down?

i thought that i can still be happy even if i don't have lots of friends as long as i have something to spend, something that can catch my attention. i am happy now, but there's a part of me that keeps on saying that, i need someone, someone i know i can be myself, someone who would not let me down. sometimes, money overcomes our relationship with other people. honestly, i tend to be friends with people who are not very, very cheap. you can't blame me, i hate to hear those, "treat me" stuffs, and i hate being called rich kid, 'cause i'm not, i'm just average. but the weird thing is, those kind of people are the ones i always end up being friends with. maybe this is just a test, maybe the world wants me to realized something. i know for a fact that you can't judge a book by its cover, but it's hard to close my eyes from reality. now, i have become open-minded, because people like me will just leave me. they have money, they have many things to do, and they can easily forget me. so now, i'm really trying hard to change my perspective about this.

i met someone, i thought we could be BFFs 'cause she's part Chinese. but now i realized, even though she likes to be with me, and i feel the same way, it will never be the way that i wanted. we both like to keep each other. But the more we try, the more we push each other away. she treats me, so i should not despise her. but i don't know, i still feel awkward. we're not talking right now, and i really miss her. i want to be with her, but something keeps on separating us. aaaaah... my story is so nonsense.

to cut it short, i just realized that money isn't everything. and i really miss someone.


less than a month left... my birthday is fast approaching. i'm certain on what i want to have on my 19th birthday. it's not Guitar Hero, not Rock Band, not iPod, not iPhone, but Macbook! i finally decided. i know that games are fun, but i think computer or laptop will give me the longest satisfaction. second choice will be trip to USA. and my wish, to have more true friends in college. if someone can send me to US to continue my study, then i'd be really happy. i'm daydreaming again. hahaha.

i was a bit depressed a while ago, 'cause i got jealous, thinking that someone might take her away from me. it's not yet clear, but i think she will still choose me.

love lots,


TODAY WAS a normal day. oops, not so normal.

my most embarrassing moment happened today. it was when i was peeing inside a cubicle with my feet on the bowl (squat) when someone opened the door. NO!! but yes. she did so my BUTT =( i hope that's the only thing she saw. it's what i call DAYmare! it's so embarrassing, until now i can remember every detail but i didn't saw her face. HOO.. i hope that would not happen again.

i feel abused...... i don't know why.

so that's all i wanted to say.


o give me peace, please

this is how i EXACTLY feel

I can't explain it.

I don't like to be left alone, I don't like to reflect upon the incidents of life that suggest sadness. I don't know why things affect me to the point where I don't even recognize how much they affect me until it's become clear that I am not as happy as I used to be. I used to enjoy the time I got to myself, to just chill and relax but now, being left alone is like a dagger that slowly works it's way to my heart and I seek constant company. Sometimes I feel like i just want to be sad, by myself, so I can get over being sad, as if there's a required amount of sadness that I must fulfill in order to move on. Move on from what? There's nothing really significant to be sad about, and on a normal basis I am genuinely happy. It's just the times I am left to myself, or the times where no one is speaking to me, where I have time to reflect that recently seems to make me distressed. Maybe I'm contemplating what went wrong, why it went wrong, and what happened? I don't know. That's why you'll constantly see me singing to myself. Singing is therapeutic. Singing keeps me from thinking about any problems in life and brings me to a sense of happiness because when I'm singing I don't have time to be thinking about the sad things, I'm just stuck in a world of happiness, even if it's an emo song.

i am so mad again.................... we're not speaking................... and she did nothing good to me................. please forgive me................. but i can no longer control my temper.................. i am such a dork